Rides bikes, paddles sea kayaks, takes pictures. Life on the road & my home in Cornwall.
A spot of spring to lift the spirits....
The winters here are, without a doubt, becoming stormier. It’s not that long ago that winter sea kayak outings were reasonably regular yet of late days not defined by high winds (and rain) seem to be increasingly few and far between, and oddly this morning, in early April, is the first time I’ve seen ice in the yard all winter.
It’s been a while since the motivation was there to write anything at all.. January and February were dark months, both literally and figuratively speaking, and one wondered what the point to posting anything at all might be. Eventually diagnosed with PTSD as a consequence of being driven into last year, the cumulative burnout of two pandemic years of working flat out, and added worries around the uncertainty and vulnerability of self employment during these “everything seems awful” times all felt quite a heavy burden, although trivial in comparison to those being borne elsewhere in the world; such is the nature of individual human experience I suppose, and western privilege/expectation….
The arrival of some spring sunshine and spells of dry weather to harden the trails and lift the spirits has made quite a difference
The relationship with my bike changed fundamentally such that my usual mechanism for coping was no longer available to me – combined with worries over the persistent ankle injury I increasingly found riding to be stressful rather than enjoyable and would return home feeling miserable and mentally exhausted rather than refreshed and energised. It’s almost impossible to avoid cars hurtling though the lanes around here and in mid-winter many of the trails are simply unrideable slop so there were few escapes. The arrival of some spring sunshine and spells of dry weather to harden the trails and lift the spirits has made quite a difference, and I feel able to look forward once again. At some point there will be some counselling help on the way but with services overwhelmed it could be a while, but time, and, hopefully some adventures along the way, will help resolve all this anyway, I’m sure; plans are afoot to just hit the road again for a bit and that is always good. In the meantime there is probably still no point at all to this post but there are a few pictures and small stories that might represent a small (very small) positive net contribution to an internet that too frequently feels like an overwhelmingly bleak place.